Whatever you are, be a good one.
What if what I am is a great psychotic, an excellent lunatic and a horribly insane person? What should I do then? What if my one greatest claim to fame is my ability to go completely around the bend when the need arises? Does anybody even get what I'm getting at? Or am I completely on my own here? What if all I'm meant to be, is to lend a sense of oscarwildean lunacy to the people around me, so that they don't take life so seriously? Does anyone even realise that under all the bubbliness lies an intensely private person and an insanely psychotic 'straight and crooked' thinker?
Does anyone even realise that a smile is not a smile if it does not reach your eyes, and a laugh is not a laugh if it does not shake your shoulders? I am tired of my fake public face. Can I stop being bubbly as one of my new year resolutions for this year? It's still the new year right?
Bloody 2004. And I still don't know what I want to do with the rest of my life. Tick Tock Tick Tock Tick Tock BOOOM!